Living an Alcohol Free life
Hi! I’m Judy Winans. And I am 5 months into living an Alcohol Free life. And although that may not seem like a long time to some, for me it feels like a lifetime. Because I never thought I could do it. So I want to share with you a bit about the day that I decided it was time.
It was a Thursday, and I was on my way home from another alcohol fueled lunch. I drank probably close to a bottle of wine, and I can’t remember, but there may have been a tequila shot or two thrown in. I had told myself that I would go home and take a quick nap before I set out to accomplish the other things I was supposed to get done that day. And of course, yet again, I knew I was not going to be productive. I knew I was going to go home and take a “quick nap”. And then that nap would extend into the evening, and then I would just say “screw it”. I will get all of my “stuff” done tomorrow. And as I was driving home that day, under the influence mind you, something clicked in my head and I said “I’m done. I can’t do this another day. I’m tired. I’m messed up. I’m confused. I feel, and look, like crap”. My skin was horrible. My face was red. I always had pimples on my nose, and my forehead was perpetually broken out, with dry flakes of skin-which I blamed on the fact that I have bangs. I was bloated. I had digestive issues. I was starting to really get worried about my health. I also couldn’t stand the taste I would get in my mouth that wouldn’t go away-even after I brushed my teeth. And if it was especially bad the next day-that’s how I knew I had really over indulged.
I was also tired of not remembering things. Of not remembering conversations from the night before-not remembering that we had watched our favorite shows. Of never being able to stay awake. Of never being able to focus. Of my mood swings. My feelings of isolation and loneliness-caused by me having to plan my day around my social schedule-so I would have an excuse to drink. And I knew that it was time for my life to have a bigger purpose. I didn’t want to continue to be known as the party girl-always ready for a good time. The one you could always count on for last call. Or to do another shot. I wanted people to look at me with admiration. I wanted to live by example.
So I made a promise to myself that day that I was going to try to stop. Because I was worried not only about my mental health, but my physical health as well. But I just wasn’t sure how I was going to do it.
And so, the Universe stepped in-as she always does-in her own way, and in her own time-because I remembered that I had seen a FB post that kept popping up- a sponsored ad for The 30 Day Alcohol Free Experiment-and so I signed up and started the next morning. And I’ve never looked back. This program worked for me-and I’ve shared the link with many others-and I will be happy to do it again. It’s a program designed by Annie Grace-who wrote the Naked Mind. It talks all about the way alcohol affects us physically-as well as mentally. You get a lesson emailed to you each morning-and they do not take long to do. There is usually some type of short video with it-and then an exercise that you need to complete. The thing about this program is that it doesn’t tell you that you can’t drink. It teaches you how to understand the relationship you have with alcohol-and you decide whether you stop completely or go back to drinking in moderation. And in the end-you learn that what the program is all about is being mindful. They also have a FB page with lots of support from others going through this journey.
And it has been THE most amazing journey. A beautiful unfolding of what I had waiting for me all along.
I look and feel so much better.
The bloat, along with 12 lbs. has disappeared.
My hair and skin are so much healthier.
I no longer have to wear foundation to cover the redness.
I am so much more focused.
More purpose driven.
More even keeled.
I am attracting so many other high vibe people that want to grow. That want to keep learning. That want to share fun life experiences with each other. Not just going out to the bar for a few drinks.
And I know that I was ready because I took the time to get in touch with myself first. I did the inner work, I learned to let go and trust that everything would we ok, I learned to invest my time in learning how to be alone again. To be in silence, and study, and get back to nature.
What started out as a 30 day experiment turned into a commitment-or a challenge to myself. And although I always keep the possibility open to drink again-I say to myself-why? Why would I ever want to go back there?
Because it’s given me this incredible power. The power to live my life on my terms. Not chained to a bottle.